I should be married by now. I should be a mommy with little me's and little him's running around us. A quiet house in the country with a white picket fence. But my reality is far from what my life expectations are. The bottom line is...There has got to be something wrong that I am doing or every man that crosses my path is either mentally, emotionally or morally jigsaw'd. I attract virtually every dysfunctional man that's in the metro. They all seem to be the exact same but different in the same. I've been with the player, the shy guy, the ego, the user, the controller, and all of the rest. Now I find myself at a point of " I don't know what to expect next". I honestly feel as though I've ran the river dry and I don't have any fight left in me. There are days where I just want to sit out on the bench. I turn down every meet and greet and every "excuse me miss" because I already have my mind precontracted to believe that it'll never work. I use to believe in the fairytale soulmate thing. Only to find out that it is just a bunch of urban legends. Once you get to a certain age, you realize that soulmates only exist for pubescent teens who still believe in that happily ever after cliche. Right? Is it all just fantasy? What do these warmhearted little girls look forward to when they finally reach the world of womanhood?
Prince Charming is just an average jerk who has a thing for wearing sheeps clothing. He is a professional con artist. He must have a degree in Marketing or Sales, because he really had me going for a while. The world is filled with tricks and gain. If you have it, and he wants it, he will promise you the world in order to get it. Im not trying to paint a grey point of view of relationship in the present day but, it appears that everything in life has became a game of personal gain. If you do not know the rules or posess a crafty gameplan to dodge the competition and/or certain obstacles...you will live an ordinarily common life just as every hopeful little girl does......I Think Cupid Is On A VERY Long Hiatus....
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Hi! Well, there a writer in you; in addition to the creativity! Who wouldn't want a creative woman. I enjoyed your orange oil video.
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ReplyDeleteIt's just the way the world is, nothing to do with you personally. So it's not that you attract jig sawed personality's we just all suffer from slight schizophrenia with a certain amount jadedness. Don't give up for where would the world be without it's hopeless romantics and fairy tale endings? Surely not anywhere i'd want to live.
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